I am awfully greedy; I want everything from life, I want to be a woman and to be a man, to have many friends and to have loneliness, to work much and write good books, to travel and enjoy myself, to be selfish and to be unselfish… You see, it is difficult to get all which I want. And then when I do not succeed I get mad with anger.
I couldn’t agree more. Except maybe on the “being a man” part - I don’t feel any desire for that (although that de Beauvoir and I came of age at very different times might explain that).
But all the rest of it? Yes, yes, yes.